Every New Beginning Comes From Some Other Beginnings End

A new year, new beginnings and all that guff. Time for a new blog.
Instead of inner ramblings which previously graced these pages, I plan to write about my experiences in this fine city without baring my soul to all and sundry. While I cannot promise that I will not go 'off message' on occasion, I do hope that you will let me know if you think I should take another route.

Onwards!

I hate to admit that I did not partake in the NYE festivities here in NY. I decided that I would ring in the new year as I intended it to go on. No, not alone - but with myself, being kind, nurturing my own wants and needs. I must confess that as the time ticked by I entertained thoughts of a solo adventure but thought better of it.

Truth is I have always thought of New Years as 'novice night' and I tend to steer clear of the crowds. I do this to honor my early 20's when I have been known to awaken on a beach with a mouth of sand and no idea where I was staying - asking a cop to drive me around some small beach town in New Zealand... I like to think I have graduated from those footloose and fancy free times, though I fear they still find me from time to time and usually when I am least expecting it. My friends find husbands when they are not looking, I find a wild ruckus night - something else I will add to the growing list of self analysis for 2010.

So, I wonder, did I do myself a disservice by not going into the wet cold New York night to watch the entertainment, which is tourists drunk and lost in the city I currently call home? I think not. I am not one for looking into the rear view mirror too frequently, but I fulfilled a life-long wish of mine last year when I was at home for New Year and took off into the forest and pitched a tent. I think anything I attempted to tackle this year would have paled by comparison. Instead, I chose to climb onto my roof in Brooklyn and stare lovingly at the Empire State Building and wonder about where I will be this time next year.


2009 was not one of my better years! I remain unemployed, or is it under-employed? I swear I don't know how I ever had time for a real job. I am busy working with friends on projects I love - I am thankful for that. Money is becoming a worry and I scoff when I think of what and who I wasted money on when I did see a positive bank balance. All good learning though and I have faith that 2010 will deliver... then again I thought that of 2009. I never have been one for odd numbers perhaps I was just sticking it out for the magic of 10.

Here's to hope... a little bit of faith and lots of love.